Sunday, August 18, 2013

So much to do

I am officially moving in 6 days, with my classes starting in 9 days, and officially freaking out.

I *think* I have everything under control for the move, although I'm frankly terrified about closing. Mainly the thought of how much the mortgage is going to be, because I've never been in debt before, so the thought of all of a sudden being in a lot of debt is scary, but the idea of home-ownership is really exciting (and really scary).

I also managed to hurt my knee, so between packing boxes and prepping for class, I'm thinking of taking the next few weeks off from Insanity, partly because I'm not following the set program anyway, and partly because the thought of maintaining the workout schedule, prepping healthy meals, packing, starting classes, moving and starting to paint and take wallpaper down makes me want to curl into a ball and cry.

That being said, the Insanity workouts HAVE made a huge difference in getting me smaller. I can officially fit into clothes that have not fit for over a year. They may be on the tight side, but I honestly can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and it's closer than I thought that it would be. After feeling like this summer was the summer of being/feeling like a train wreck, knowing that I'm so close to one of my goals feels so good.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Being realistic

I've posted about doing the Insanity workouts. I should be up front, and mention that I'm not following their workout program (obviously, as their program doesn't call for 2 workouts a day). Frankly, I can't do the program as designed. Between moving in 3 weeks and starting classes in 3 weeks and 3 days, I will not have the time to do the workouts as planned.

Now, I understand that the "I won't have time" is, usually, an excuse. However, my schedule for 2 consecutive days a week will be "wake up at 5:30, get ready/take the train to work, work 8 hours, take the train to school, wait 50 minutes for class to start (review homework, notes, list of questions doing the homework generated) , class for 2 hours, get home at 9ish p.m.". Yes, I can probably wake up at 4 to do a workout on the first day, but it's a bit much, and I know that I can't commit to doing 40+ minute workouts on those days.

I'm planning to compromise by getting up at 5:30 and doing half hour workouts when I get home at night, or doing longer, more relaxing yoga sessions, or not working out and just drinking tea because being gone for almost 15 hours is bad enough.

I am going to work on following a better diet, and getting enough sleep, as well as keeping the workouts going, packing a box of stuff a day, spending 15 minutes a day cleaning and another 15 minutes working on finding a better job.

I'm not necessarily hoping to lose weight at this point, but I am hoping that I won't gain any weight. It was a huge deal for me just to not gain weight this year, so I don't feel like I need to lose the 10ish pounds that I want to lose immediately.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Quality over Quantity

This past week, I've been working on building momentum and checking things off my (revised) to-do list. I've been modestly successful---things are packed, I have worked out, and I haven't felt completely overwhelmed, to the point where the sheer amount of things I have to do is so much that it destroys my motivation just by existing.

I've also been trying to focus on quality over quantity--1 really good workout where I'm an exhausted, sweaty heap is probably better than 2 stationary bike rides where I hate it and I'm watching TV, and not working very hard at all. I'm trying to let go of setting aside larger chunks of time to clean and pack and focusing more on cleaning as I go about my day (I did clean for an hour, but I've been capping any "cleaning time" at an hour, because that's when I start hitting diminishing returns).

I've focused on "big shifts" in working out, and smaller changes for the rest of my goals. So far, it's working. I'm having a bit more energy and sleeping better. I also made it a rule that I couldn't sit down when I got home until my workout was finished, which means that I'm working out as soon as I get home. The only problem is that, on really bad days (when I'm in a super-negative mood), I do a second Insanity workout. In one way, it works, because the workouts reduce me to a sweaty exhausted heap, and I've stopped thinking about whatever it was that made me upset. On the other hand, I'm an exhausted, mindless drone for the rest of the night. I'm looking at the glass as being half full, in that it's getting me out of my negativity, flooding my brain with endorphins, and getting me to bed earlier.

I've had good results so far--I've made tangible progress cleaning, packing, and applying to jobs (I have an interview on Monday, and the position feels like it would be a good fit for me). I've also lost a little over a pound this week.

This weekend is a little crazy for me, but as long as I don't spend too much time sitting around in my pajama pants, I should be able to get everything done.